People often ask me if I'm tired wen knowing how much I work . but I don't find as tiring as they would think sometimes I find it exsilrating knowing that I cheated sleep so many times but I know I can only go so long winning against this adversary until I lose and she takes a decisive victory
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Events in life teach what to truly make of things. It seems that people are lost without guidance. They will do the wrong thing over and over again blind to their actions, how cruel human nature. We sit around and do the craziest things in life because we do not want to get cheated but we did and we join ordeals that we are not supposed to and make things worse
Events in life teach what to truly make of things. It seems that people are lost without guidance. They will do the wrong thing over and over again blind to their actions, how cruel human nature. We sit around and do the craziest things in life because we do not want to get cheated but we did and we join ordeals that we are not supposed to and make things worse
Family is a thing I never truly knew. My family seems to be off a bit, never truly in tune with the feelings of others. As I try to improve myself I feel like they hold me back. In my mind as I think of my family what comes to my mind is me carrying them up an endless hill as I feel the pain that I will feel every day.
I never took naps as a child I think it was because I fear losing the day. Today I have a different perceptive on naps, I just see the true pleasure of naps. They give your body the feeling of being renewed. I have read in a shin a sense that with this nap your body is a new the best knives out with others in the moment when you are both just to sleep you feel as if you are one person being Croydon Road by the inner soul of one another as you stare into the eyes of that person its only fall asleep
I saw you on that first day of school. As I walked through those doors I was stunned motionless. I couldn't see your face but the feeling I got I just knew it was you as you flip your hair and turn your face my heart skipped a beat. The person I was then, so insecure was unable to approach you which hurt but at that moment was something I could live with.
I want to see your body tremble from my touch. Your skin is so soft, my fingers are so nimble as it grazes your body. Why does your body evade my bite? I feel my pleasure from your pain but I would never hurt you. I have a taste for the life in you.Your relentless beauty keeps me from being controlling myself to the point where I am no longer myself but the animals that I keep locked way deep inside my heart.
I wonder how are you doing. You keep buzzing on my mind. Your smell keeps going through my mind it's uncanny. I think in the classic play Romeo and Juliet Romeo calls for Julia whereas die for I Julia in actually he knew he couldn't find her but I thought his heart from the pain of being away from her his love he cried out for her and as in this as become my reality.
I am different today then I was two months ago. I was different a month ago then I was but a mere year ago. Its funny how my growth works. I seem to be developing but don't know how. I think it is my life experiences but when I ponder on this thought it doesn't seem to be just the experiences. The experiences are usually have the story of my growth. My life experiences tend to lead me to the things that alter dare I say it, my reality.
It feels like she just threw me an emotional weight, bringing down my happiness. Why must she do this, I have no idea. Every morning I feel amazing to be alive then she began her assault of vengeful words. Her general mode feels like the angel of sadness is unleashing it's might upon anyone stands in her way, which is mostly me. The tireless assault is wearing me down and I fear will end me.
Looking at those people as I took that tour made me truly see how lucky I am. I live in a country in which I am unaware of all the opportunity in the world. I can work hard and be sucessful, I have a choice. But and shocking contrast I saw me there that work extremely hard in particular one teen nice now I will never forget I know. I knew truly no hard feelings boil sales
Memories last a lifetime. There are moments that stick with us forever. I am grateful to have added to my list of memories. This trip has not only been fun but it has given me time to think about myself and the direction I want to take in my life. I now dub this vacation and well done well done indeed.
My dear Miss ?. How you cut me, one of your purposes is suppose to have my back the more and more I find that you are riding it you are so selfish everything has to be about you. you want me to change so badly I know you don't sometimes in my mind all I want you to do is set up I tried so hard to love you bye na na is never enough if it continues down this road I will depart from me forever.
We do not realize our adiction until it is too late. An addiction is not what always people percieve most addictions to be for such as drus or acholal. On some occasions our addictions can be for the things we do not realize we can possibly be addicted to. My addictions seem to overtake me at times because I always think I am in control of them then suddenly little by little it becomes my everything
What is it we are meant to do with this life. It seems I am in a quest to answer a question I will never get the answer to. I just want to feel like I am moving forward maybe I am moving forward but don't feel like I am. Is there supposed to be a feeling some type of enlightenment moment where I know everything I have done in the last 20 years was worth it