Thursday, February 27, 2014

People often ask me if I'm tired wen knowing how much I work . but I don't find as tiring as they would think sometimes I find it exsilrating knowing that I cheated sleep so many times but I know I can only go so long winning against this adversary until I lose and she takes a decisive victory

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Are you truly living, are you truly go to life knowing you are living it to the fullest? I want to live, to feel the blood in mY veins. I want to fill my blood rush. Dear God I want to live

Events in life teach what to truly make of things. It seems that people are lost without guidance. They will do the wrong thing over and over again blind to their actions, how cruel human nature. We sit around and do the craziest things in life because we do not want to get cheated but we did and we join ordeals that we are not supposed to and make things worse

Events in life teach what to truly make of things. It seems that people are lost without guidance. They will do the wrong thing over and over again blind to their actions, how cruel human nature. We sit around and do the craziest things in life because we do not want to get cheated but we did and we join ordeals that we are not supposed to and make things worse

Family is a thing I never truly knew. My family seems to be off a bit, never truly in tune with the feelings of others. As I try to improve myself I feel like they hold me back. In my mind as I think of my family what comes to my mind is me carrying them up an endless hill as I feel the pain that I will feel every day.

Greatness is a goal that all dream of capturing but only a few actually do. I believe in my life I will always be in the pursuit of greatness wither I have already achieved the goal or not. For to me the pursuit is the greatest part.

I have to wake up from the sleep state where in reality I am not doing anything. I have to fight for everything I want in this life, I am Evan Edmond, the name means that I will never give up never let the norms of the Worlds overtake me. I will win!

I never took naps as a child I think it was because I fear losing the day. Today I have a different perceptive on naps, I just see the true pleasure of naps. They give your body the feeling of being renewed. I have read in a shin a sense that with this nap your body is a new the best knives out with others in the moment when you are both just to sleep you feel as if you are one person being Croydon Road by the inner soul of one another as you stare into the eyes of that person its only fall asleep

I saw you on that first day of school. As I walked through those doors I was stunned motionless. I couldn't see your face but the feeling I got I just knew it was you as you flip your hair and turn your face my heart skipped a beat. The person I was then, so insecure was unable to approach you which hurt but at that moment was something I could live with.

I want to see your body tremble from my touch. Your skin is so soft, my fingers are so nimble as it grazes your body. Why does your body evade my bite? I feel my pleasure from your pain but I would never hurt you. I have a taste for the life in you.Your relentless beauty keeps me from being controlling myself to the point where I am no longer myself but the animals that I keep locked way deep inside my heart.

I wonder how are you doing. You keep buzzing on my mind. Your smell keeps going through my mind it's uncanny. I think in the classic play Romeo and Juliet Romeo calls for Julia whereas die for I Julia in actually he knew he couldn't find her but I thought his heart from the pain of being away from her his love he cried out for her and as in this as become my reality.

I am different today then I was two months ago. I was different a month ago then I was but a mere year ago. Its funny how my growth works. I seem to be developing but don't know how. I think it is my life experiences but when I ponder on this thought it doesn't seem to be just the experiences. The experiences are usually have the story of my growth. My life experiences tend to lead me to the things that alter dare I say it, my reality.

It feels like she just threw me an emotional weight, bringing down my happiness. Why must she do this, I have no idea. Every morning I feel amazing to be alive then she began her assault of vengeful words. Her general mode feels like the angel of sadness is unleashing it's might upon anyone stands in her way, which is mostly me. The tireless assault is wearing me down and I fear will end me.

Life can be so cruel. The darkest time is when you actually discover what you were blind because you were in her line with the speed of everyday life

Life is like an endless battle field, you are constantly navigating through it trying not to get hurt. But with all you persistence it becomes a matter of time before you ultimately are subject to pain.

Looking at those people as I took that tour made me truly see how lucky I am. I live in a country in which I am unaware of all the opportunity in the world. I can work hard and be sucessful, I have a choice. But and shocking contrast I saw me there that work extremely hard in particular one teen nice now I will never forget I know. I knew truly no hard feelings boil sales

Memories last a lifetime. There are moments that stick with us forever. I am grateful to have added to my list of memories. This trip has not only been fun but it has given me time to think about myself and the direction I want to take in my life. I now dub this vacation and well done well done indeed.

My dear Miss ?. How you cut me, one of your purposes is suppose to have my back the more and more I find that you are riding it you are so selfish everything has to be about you. you want me to change so badly I know you don't sometimes in my mind all I want you to do is set up I tried so hard to love you bye na na is never enough if it continues down this road I will depart from me forever.

My first heartbreak probably one of the most damaging things to happen to me and I didn't even realize it until today the fact that she dumped me for one of my best friend at the time when my confidence for a long time she was my first real kiss and I can still remember it like it was yesterday

One day you will say I love you, the next you are the coldest person in the world. I feel dead

People are a weird species are merely actors disguising what they want most. They truly want you to believe that they have your interests at heart but in the end while you are most unsuspecting they will revile their true intentions

Sometimes we look upon others to leave the way for us. However we ultimately find out one way or another that what all we need is within us

There is something that is funny in a way it is totally controllable but when it is near it seems very much the opposite. Like the saying goes there is Joyce danger is real until recently I didn't think about it a ferret controlled my life but with not any longer I fear no one and nothing

We do not realize our adiction until it is too late. An addiction is not what always people percieve most addictions to be for such as drus or acholal. On some occasions our addictions can be for the things we do not realize we can possibly be addicted to. My addictions seem to overtake me at times because I always think I am in control of them then suddenly little by little it becomes my everything

What is it we are meant to do with this life. It seems I am in a quest to answer a question I will never get the answer to. I just want to feel like I am moving forward maybe I am moving forward but don't feel like I am. Is there supposed to be a feeling some type of enlightenment moment where I know everything I have done in the last 20 years was worth it